If you are not sad sometimes you have no idea what happy feels like. Turning in to yourself is sometimes a self defense mechanism to not let anyone get to close. You are lonely, but feel and rightfully so, that if you let yourself be happy that someone or something will come along to take in away and the fall is much more painful than just staying sad all the time. With each hurt, let down, lost dream, lie, esc you loose a part of yourself. Till the only thing that feels right is to be down. To shut down. You know sadness. It feels good to you and we always stick with what we know and feels "good" to us.

Now how to fix it? How to remove yourself from this hardcore funk? Forgive everyone that has ever hurt you. Take back your power. Take a chance. Don't dwell on the negative. Let yourself feel happy. Love, dance, take time to do something you love, read, paint, write something beautiful.

I hope as you read this you are feeling better than you did. That a small hint of a smile came to life and if you need to talk, We are here.

Clemfan