As I always say to anyone quick to judge us - if you think it's bad from the outside, imagine BEING us.

They will never know what it is to live a life like ours. They have a choice in choosing to educate themselves if they desire further involvement - we have no choice in learning to behave differently. Yes it's hard on our loved ones.....but we end up carrying that guilt too. It's hardly fair is it?

But the point is you're trying. You're not a failure if you haven't succeeded - only if you don't try. So be proud, stay brave and keep going