I think the hardest thing I've ever done has been to reconcile strong feelings of hatred and revenge and rage with kindness and compassion. It's hard to be real.

Yesterday in therapy I really got that people care about me and like me because I am good. I am good because I've faced all the crazy angry stuff in me. I've faced it and accepted it. I've accepted my body with its animal instincts for self preservation and its rage and vengefulness. We can't transcend it until we accept it. We can't transcend trauma until we accept everything about it, including the terror of death.