It feels so extremely strange when I feel "nothing". I feel, boring, or bland, and nothing. Is this the feeling of stable? Or the feeling of medicated drone? I feel I am happier now, but I still have my shifts somewhat often, although, sometimes due to underlying issues. I do feel more stable/happy on my correct meds but again, sometimes, I feel nothing, boring, stable...? I am not used to that feeling, so I don't like it. Lol Cannot have it all huh? I want to be high happy all the time but to the point that is safe lol I don't know. lol I am babbling, if anyone even understands this at all.