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Originally Posted by Underground
Are people really called "narcs" as much as people write here??(Hard for me to believe)
Now for the topic, I react quickly to confrontation. I usually get very angry and am all to often quick to go on the offense. When I drink I usually test people in an aggressive way which is something I really need to stop doing. I have very minimal restraint which causes problems. I often will lose my mind quickly and when this happens my thoughts come out of my mouth that probably nobody can understand. (The tornado in words haha)
I like to challenge people too much and this is one of the things I would like to change. To let go and know that my response is not needed at all times.
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some people on this site say narc. And I like the nickname.
When I get drunk I either end up fighting or just laughing at the other person. It's dependent on how the other person reacts. Like I get so honest really. I tend to let the words fly when sober but it's extremely bad when I'm drunk. Usually the person resorts to either fighting or in my gf's case crying. And I can't really say I'm sincerely sorry for what I said usually when sober I agree with what I said it's just something I would hold back on normally.
When I'm anger when drunk it isn't a safe situation. I literally want to kill the other person. I've had thoughts when sober of setting this guy at work on fire or raping him with a knife and the like. If I were to get drunk and annoyed by him idk what would happen but I don't hang around people I don't like for this reason because I have fantasies when sober and I get in a high strung rage mood I don't know what I would do. And I can't make it in prison. So I try to make it staying as closely in the guidelines society has made.
Also when drunk I don't like being around people I like either. I make sometimes dumb choices. Like once I was drunk and hanging out with some people I thought this guy was cute and we started flirting I ended up texting my bf at the time that I was breaking up with him despite the fact that I still loved him well as much as I've ever loved anyone really and hooked up with the guy I was hanging out with and normally didn't even like him. I have lost a lot of relationships this way that I didn't want to get out of. But made a decision on the whim due to alcohol. So I tend to not like being drunk around anyone tbh. But yeah when I'm drunk I tend to do and say anything that feels right at the moment. Sober I have a little restraint my restraint is more hit and run in arguments. If I stick around someone tends to go to the hospital. But I've only stuck around like one or twice. When I'm drunk I tend to stick around and then fights ensue. But what I don't get is why people get upset. I mean if you say something to start **** idk why you don't expect to get what you deserve. If there were no laws I bet I'd be less restrained.