gd news..........can seriously cry

bad news...................bawled my *&^%#@ eyes out....................i mean JUST SOBBED -- gasping for air & im not exaggerating -- yest eve on a public bus for over 1/2 hr AND sobbed loudly on public (major) street wed aft & then in a church for ~ 3 hrs...........................................

how utterly embarrassing..............................................everyone on bus just stared......................i could feel their eyes on me.....................................one guy offered me his tissue.....................................made me cry even more..................bus driver was nice................................then the startles began.............................................

just
a
total
complete
mess

if
theres
any
type
of
"god"
up
there
just
gimmie
a
sign
damnit
i cant
take
this
pain
&
deep
deep
excruciating
sorrow

LMAO LMAO LMAO
when will i ever learn
thought i hit rock btm
several x's
eons ago

one
foot
hangin
over
man ------