Thanks Motown Johnny. I just keep wondering when will it end?? Does it ever end?? I know of people who have gone through fires, also a woman who lost everything in a tornado. They all seem fine. I have to admit I don't know the details of their lives when these things happened to them, but they say nothing about struggling with emotions. It's as if they've just wiped off the dust and moved on while I'm cowering in a corner. As you say, other people have come out of this. Why does it seem so easy for them, though?? It makes me wonder if I'm super weak or what is wrong with me?? I'm trying to carry on daily, but every day has its hurdles, and then there's just that anxiety buzz looming in the background constantly. The on edge what is going to happen next that won't let me be at ease. I have irrational fears that I'll be homeless one day because I'm afraid I'll end up being alone and not able to take care of myself. I'm actually wanting to get a job now JUST TO BE SURE we have enough money, and extra, to cover our bills and everything. It's like I'm just waiting for the next bad thing to come around the corner and want to be prepared somehow - whatever it may be. It's scary. I don't know what you went through, but it does feel that way. I often wonder if I'll ever feel happiness again, or is this going to be my life now??