Anxious, anxious... No way to explain everything going on, but my husband has been with his parents this last month (I had to go out of town and he has likes to stay with his parents any chance he can,,, no, not kids we are in our 40's) So, I had to come pick him up and have to spend the night or it is considered rude. They are kind but are very judgmental and I am SOOOO anxious when I come here. I have been here about 8 times and had to come tonight.
My husband knows what it does to me to be in these social situations so he was kind enough to make arrangments for us to go visit his friends at 9:30 tonight. Oh how I hate this. On the way there he informs me that we are seeing another one of his friends on the way out of town in the morning and then tells me that he told his mother to set up a seperate bedroom so we can sleep in seperate rooms because of an air conditioner problem (He doesn't provide me a sense of security anyway, but I sure didn't realize how much I would rather be with him in his home then in a room by myself).
I feel completely alone and scared. I know how stupid it sounds to be 40 and scared of just being in someones house that I know is safe as far as that goes. I know this post must sound extremely stupid, but for some reason this stuff really has me going. I don't even want to fall asleep for some reason. I know there is no physical danger, but I ..... oh, I don't know.
I just thought I would see if there was anyone around on a Friday night.