yes it does, mouse.

I like your term 'kidnapped energy'.. so full of metaphors...

Although I don't know when the narcissistic stage occurs... is that a normal part of development chronologically?... I think that if feelings are not allowed, or one can only have the feelings that are allowed (because they actually belong to the mother and she can't recognize or doesn't acknowledge anyone but herself so only her feelings are valid) then it can cause this state too. When I was able to identify and name what I was feeling, I felt better.

I will have to think about what you said here, because there has to be some reason my moods and energy roller coaster the way they do. i have read that the threat of loss or abandonment can have the affect of causing panic, so it really does make sense that when that is released or has passed then I feel calmer... I feel more 'present'. That seems like the opposite of what you said... I don't know. Will have to think on it.

Thanks mouse_!