Ok, I have what seems like a strange one to me. Would love to hear if anyone has any ideas but it will take a bit of background information to explain it.

I have only been in therapy for a couple of months and my T thinks I have PTSD. Since we 'opened' the door on stuff, I have been really down, about to cry most of the time and frequently anxious. We have talked about this and he reassured me it is very typical. He says I work hard to keep myself 'in control' by keeping all emotions stuffed. The only emotion I really notice is a dull sadness that sometimes gets real sharp (although I do laugh at tv and jokes freely, I don't know that I 'feel' happy. I am confused by that).
My husband does not bring me any sense of safety or security as he has issues of his own and is unable to focus on anyone but himself. I understand this but have had to distance myself from him emotionally because of it.
Ok, now to what I found confusing. He had been staying at his families house the last month and I came to pick him up tonight. I have a great deal of anxiety being at his parents house (we are in our 40's, not kids) and I was anxious when I arrived. He had made arrangments for us to go see a friends family when I arrived (at 9:30 at nite) so I was even more anxious then. I still went and the person we saw was being pretty nasty to his wife and that is usually one of my triggers. I noticed while I was setting there that I was not anxious, I was NOTHING. When we left and drove back to his parents home, I remained nothing. We ended up staying in separate bedrooms (we wont even go into that anxiety issue, but that is why I am awake at almost 1 in the morning), but when I went into the room and set on the bed, the anxiety and sadness started to return???????

Anybody have a clue as to why everything would disappear in his presence? It sure wasn't like I felt safe in his presence, everything just left. I am baffled?