I totally get it. I refuse to take any meds that will totally squash my mania. Depakote, APs, lithium, etc. hell with that!!!
This is my life and I want to feel AWESOME as much as possible!!!
Of course, Cur77 is in a unique pinch, and compliance is most likely the best decision for the next 10 months... I'd still want to find a different doctor after that though. I can't stand pull-pushers.