We are in the same boat. I have not been formally diagnosed either, this is what my T thinks and I think highly of him and believe he is pretty darn wise so I am thinking he is right but sometimes I wonder about what I do. Mine he feels is from my earliest years and I did the same as you and told myself to 'suck it up', 'slap back the mess' and 'move on' for the last 20 years. I wasn't doing so bad until my T suggested I look at a couple of things (he was originally my husband's T from the issues going on and we were doing couples counseling also. One day I asked him to help me with something and he suggested looking at something else and bam,,,,here I am) LOL.

I have been assaulting my T the last couple of weeks with the same thing you are saying. He opened a can of worms that made what seemed tollerable into a huge mess. If he is correct though, my life could be much better if I can stop stuffing it to 'get over it' and deal with it instead. I don't allow emotion out, don't trust people at all and as I said earlier, I have a pretty significant issue with people pleasing and wanting everyone happy.

As scary as it all is (and it sure is), I am going to try to let the mess keep coming for a while and hope for the outcome he believes I can have. I have only known my T for about 6 months as my husbands and couple counseling and only about a month as my own individual, but I can tell you that I sure feel blessed. I would never have believed I would be able to trust someone and talk to someone about what is going on in my head like I can him. He is a God sent and I haven't made in progress yet... LOL... but at least he has given me hope which is something I never had before.