Hi, all,

My therapist called yesterday and said the AC in her office is broken, so she is seeing clients in another office. She told me where to meet her, etc.

I thought about it for about two hrs, and felt increasingly anxious and disoriented. I called her last night and cancelled. She was really nice -- completely "got" that I just couldn't see her in another office.

I was surprised she was so accepting -- she said she had been particularly worried about how I might react to the change. I am so thankful I didn't have to "explain" to her the internal chaos.

So, mostly I feel ok. A little of me feels stupid at not being able to do something so simple as be seen in another office... but the very thought caused major internal chaos. I couldn't imagine introduing everyone to a new office... it would take up hrs to prepare myself, and the whole session would be about the change... and I wouldn't get to talk about other, ongoing issues. So it is easier to cancel.

But sometimes I do feel "ill" -- when something like this arises and I "know" I should be able to deal with it. I have to keep telling myself the best thing to do is recognize and honor my own limitations... I am sooo glad my therapist believes that, too. My old therapist would have said I was irrational and the t before that would have been very sweet but been completely confused by my canceling.

Well, I am just babbling... t rescheduled me for Monday, which is sort of inconveinent... my d's first day of Kindergarden but I can do it. I am glad I am being seen fairly soon... lots going on.

M