Whether manic or depressed, this disorder causes so much destruction.
I've had a pretty bad hypo manic week and have done some horrible things. Things that I don't even think I can talk to my T about.
Yesterday morning, I knew I had to come down some how before I continued on the path I was, so I took a pretty high dose of medication to bring me down, even though I knew I'd crash.

Well, it worked and looking back on the week, well the things I remember I'm so ashamed,and embarrassed with myself. I can't answer the phone because people are calling that I don't know and I can't even leave my apartment for fear of coming face to face with some of my unspeakable behavior.

Once I clued in to what was going on It was too late, the damage had been done and now the clean up has to begin.

I really am a good person but turn into the complete opposite when I'm severely hypo.

I don't understand... I don't understand why this has to happen to good people or for anyone for that matter.

The guilt, loathing and depression has set in.