It's been a hard week. I don't like getting migraines and that is what my lack of sleep caused. I'm wide awake after 6-7 hours of "sleep" last night. Thoughts are permeating my mind even as I sleep. Ideas of sayings to paint. Crafts to do ways to reorganize the bedroom. Books to read exercises to try and walks to take. How much I don't want to be laying down because there is so much to do. New tattoo ideas. And more irrational thoughts like I'm too hyper or whatever the proper term is because I'm posting a lot talking a lot and doing so many things a lot. I've been thinking about what if that red spot on my arm was an iv mark and someone drugged me and the reason I'm acting the way I am is because the drugs they put in me. What if I am Lucy there's a movie coming out named Lucy. What if that's what's happening? Then there's the thoughts about what trees say to each other... I feel like I can here them talking and when I'm around several trees I feel like I'm part of a very special conversation. Then there's the sexual thoughts, but mother nature is having fun prolonging my femaleness. I'm thinking about things that are so opposite of me as my wife pointed out. I have a deep desire to go spend thousands of dollars on corsets and shoes and new clothes that show off my body. And to move to a city leave this small Podunk town I live in and move cross country to someplace like Denver or Seattle or San Francisco. I want to leave my job and just up and go right now. I feel a need to do these things. I'm having to stay quiet as my wife is still asleep which is limiting limiting what I can do. I'm just rambling. I know I'm going to do something great and expect everyone else to recognize it too. I could learn to teach people how to communicate with trees and other plants or have an ingenious idea to help save our planet that will be so easy and cheap everyone will do it. I'm trying to grab all my thoughts and put them down on paper, but I can't there are some speeding by before I can catch them. I feel amazing and alive and in touch with everything. Things are more vivid in color and sound and I'm taking pleasure in the subtle shades and variations of colors of some artwork in the house and sky. I feel like I have to move and can't sit still or focus too long on one thing so as I gaze I'm quickly noticing these things. It's like my brain instantly catches the subtleties that everyone normally misses.