i've seen my t for a long time. and honestly, it's been good. i appreciate his style and it's been helpful. when i started, i was a mess who needed help with long untreated depression. i'm still trying to deal with my depression tho so therapy has continued. sometimes more often, sometimes less (there have been times i don't see him for several months or longer). anyway with my ppd kicking my butt, i've been seeing him frequently.
the thing is... things have gotten weird. that is, weird for me. i don't know what to do. i feel like the relationship has gotten intense and that bothers me. like, i realize i care about him as a person (no, not in love with him, just that he matters to me on some level). i don't like that. part of what made therapy great for me is that i didn't feel attached. or maybe i did this whole time and i just didn't realize it.
that's made me want to terminate and restart with another t. i don't like being attached to my t and it bothers me that i am. the problem is that this is one of the issues that we're dealing with - my tendency to cut off relationships when i feel they are 'sticky' or they matter too much to me. i sent him an email explaining some of this but i haven't brought up termination. i was thinking i might do that next session. i feel like i should just terminate, no notice, but that stupid attachment piece has me thinking - that's not really fair to him. and also the whole 'this is what you do in relationships doofus, stop it.'
does anyone else have this problem? what did you do when your therapy got too intense? i want it all to go back to the boring way it was before