I am so sorry that you are feeling so much pain right now and have fallen into the trap of SI onece again. I am happy you are determined to stop and that is so important. And you are a strong person and can once again stop such a self destruction thing to do to yourself.

Sometimes our non destructive coping mechanisms just aren't strong enough to take such feelings as loneliness. But they are there and you can rely on them to get you thorugh this hard time too. Do you have someone to talk to about this? Many times that helps very much. And posting here may prove to be another thing you can do. Know that you are heard here. Please take care of yourself and try and stay safe. Do you need to see a doc about your wounds? Please do go if you do.

BB