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Originally Posted by rothfan6
It does make sense to find a healthier way to hurt. I'll have to try holding ice.
I wouldn't be open with another t it's just how I am. I grew up being punished or ridiculed for saying what I thought so I just never feel safe doing it. Throw in keeping abuse by my dad from my mom I censor everything I say. I couldn't risk talking bad about him or showing any negative feeling towards him. I really feel comfortable with my t as much as I'm capable for the most part. He really supported me this week but just blew it yesterday. He apologized late last night. Said for some reason he kept thinking our session was tonight instead. I keep thinking I'm asking too much from him or am too much work.
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in that case, if this is just one screw up, if you can find it in yourself to realize he's human and screws up too, maybe it can be repaired.
i grew up that what i was feeling was unacceptable (i was yelled at for having depression and made to feel like i was shameful for dealing with it). it's taken me a loooong time to really share with t what i'm feeling and even then i'm constantly apologizing for feeling a certain way. i'm terrified he's going to dump me at any moment.
i hope you can find a way to be open with him. can you see if he would meet you tonight anyway? be like 'ok, i need to talk, can we work it out tonight?'