i can and i plan to. kind of. i may type it up in an e-mail for our session in a few days. i sent him some of it (i don't really drink very often but i really wanted to share some thoughts with him and i knew i couldn't do it completely sober - i'm kicking myself for that email even though everything i said in it is exactly true and exactly what i wanted to say).

the quote in my signature is what made me realize i needed to try to figure out this termination thing and you guys here are so supportive and so i thought i would talk it out a bit here to help give me some courage to really open up about it to my t.

he hugged me for the first time this last session and i think that triggered my terror. because i liked and wanted the hug and i was like whoa. and now i want to backtrack.