I mentioned this to my therapist this week that in the past week or 2, I'm starting to feel more outwardly aggressive than turning it inward.

For me, I still want to hurt myself, but there's no proof if I hit a wall or whatever.

I ended up cutting my wrist yesterday afternoon, and just had the urge to keep doing it until it was bad enough for stitches. Didn't get that far thankfully, but I haven't felt that urge that strongly for a while now.

However, last night I became very frustrated and just couldn't get the thought of punching our fish/frog tank to shatter it. This is very out of the ordinary for me, and I'm not sure what's going on.