You saved up money to go see a therapist on your own because that is what you wanted, now you want to communicate with someone. Save up ghost writing money and figure out how to move out from your parents' into a room share of some sort (have you any interest in college/school?). I would first get away from your scary/non-helpful/crippling parents and then see about jobs and therapy, etc. I don't think you can get the help you desire or communicate what you need with/to your parents and current resources. Save up money and use it to buy more resources/time for yourself away from your parents.