I'm 6 days late. And yes I'm sexually active. I've never been more than 4 days late before. I have been stressed out a lot lately and I haven't had a good night sleep all summer. Like I wake up several times during the night. My body keeps tricking me into thinking I'm about to start by giving me cramps but they end up being BM cramps instead of period cramps. My boyfriend and I have been super careful. We always use protection although I'm not on birth control. I'm scared that I might be pregnant again. I've already had one abortion and I don't want to go through that again but I can't bring a baby into this world.

I feel so stupid and useless and irresponsible and pathetic and scared. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just want to go away and never come back. Maybe sleep forever and never wake up.

I know many of y'all will be thinking that I am stupid and irresponsible but I just can't handle any judgement or negativity.