Again, thank you for replies. These really help me out to take a different view on whole situations.

healingme4me - I was actually looking at this bolded bit as well. It makes me think why I always try to take some blame and try to justify her actions. Because quite frankly - I've looked into the past and hardly see any wrongdoing on my side. I can admit I wasn't fantastic partner - but here we again - wasn't good measuring it in her standards. Funny enough and took her standards as a universal one. That is I didn't see that some traits I have would be actually seen as positive ones by other women (such as being responsible with money).

As for treating her the same way - tried this before - she cannot stand the behavior I'm only returning - but I doubt she even realize I copy her. She just doesn't see it.

I guess I will seek help for myself - it's time to understand why I've end up in this kind of relationship in the first place. It must be something down to my childhood which was far from perfect.

Anyway, thanks again for replies - it's a huge eye opener.