I have not been real open about my diagnosis of BP1 outside forums or my fam. I'm sure I've said before I was diagnosed a year and a half ago. Lost my job due to extreme stress and also dealing with my other son who was suffering the same thing. Left on good enough terms though but really became really manic and dysfunctional for awhile. Got on meds, took a year to tweek. My husband supported myself and the kids. I did not feel stable enough to work, and the one time I tried I got extremely manic and so confused.

Problem is I owe child support & paid only we what we could afford for an older son out of state (18 this year) while out of work. His dad makes $150k a year, I made just over 12K even when I was working and have other children to support. Not saying it was right for me to neglect the legal order, but the children I have here and now have to eat. I got behind $2k, and they just suspended my license. I found out yesterday.

I'm in a good place now, stable and just landed a job last week. PT so I don't get overwhelmed, but enough to satisfy my payments. I need to go in to Child Support Enforcement to try to clear this up. I am *not* lazy! I love working but I was truly in no way capable for a time.

I don't want DCF to know my business, I wonder if it would do more harm than good to disclose that diagnosis. I was ill, just not in the more conventional sense.

I don't want it officially documented in the "system" for fear it would come back to bite me in the butt.

And in no way am I looking to get out of paying. I just want my license back so I can drive to my job, and get my children places they need to be.

Experience? Hope? Strength? Advice?