That's what usually happens (first reaction) to both making the appointment...first step...and to telling someone...you're right. It makes it real.

Try not to worry too much, just remember you'll feel so much better once you've gone the first time. Also remember the first appt doesn't have to be about you unloading everything you've been feeling all this time....it's sort of a 'get to know you session' so you can learn about your T and she can evaluate how your feeling, and that information is usually gained with a much less formal interview. (of course if you DO want to vent, I'm sure you will be accomidated!)

I would also recommend making a few notes of things you particularly want to make her aware of, so you don't forget (I've forgotten to do that before and felt like an idiot because I didn't want to call my T and say 'oops' but I hated having to wait another two weeks to see her).

Good luck and please keep us posted on your progress!