Thanks for your reply, TheWell! Oh yes. The Twin Cities has a large & active LGBTQ community & it is, for the most part as far as I know, well accepted. But no I have no plans to go there, literally or figuratively speaking.

My challenge is to study myself, & learn as much as possible about myself, but not to be hooked by what I experience. So while I do want to acknowledge these aspects of myself, & try to understand & accept them as parts of my overall makeup, I then want to be able to let them go without either continuing to be disturbed by them or actually going out & bringing them into real life... if that makes any sense.

So, while I do write about these things, here on PC, it is an effort on my part to "own" what I feel, to get it out in the open in a safe way, & hopefully to gain more understanding of it... but not to actually do it.