I suffer from severe anxiety as well and it has gotten to the point were I don't have panic response anymore. I was talking to t about how I just don't feel anything anymore. but my over riding theme is that I don't experience joy. I never have. I remember two ts ago asking me, have you never experienced joy? and I made it a goal to find joy. still haven't. I go to a music festival once a year where I get high and then I feel really really good, such happiness. recently I found myself back in hopelessness so pdoc put me back on antidepressants. she thought they could help me find joy. im not hopeless anymore but nowhere close to joy.