Thanks DaveyJones. I am trying to take it one day at a time. The best thing right now is that I have the support of my sisters. They don't understand it all, but they believe something is not right and they can't wait for me to come home in October, when they promised to "fix me". You gotta love sisters. I have two major stuggles...alcohol abuse and not knowing when I am really me. I am on so many meds that I can't put a finger on how I feel at anytime. I don't know where my disease ends and where I begin. Only alcohol gives me a sense of familiarity...Like "ah, I have been here before." I probably need to go to detox. But I can't afford it, being that I am planning a trip back home, which is not cheap. Well enough of my venting. Holla back.