I already am doing everything I can in addressing this issue, but I am also here talking about it at the same time because that is what these forums are all about and I wish to know very important things here.

I believe what I'm having now is not depression, but anhedonia because that is something that happens when your mind decides to shut down your emotions because, in my case, the fear was too much. But it is something that does not cause you to feel hopeless or sad as in depression. In my case, it leaves me with no fear of these thoughts and no ability to experience pleasure.

Now tell me if I am true or false on this which is that the only way I see getting better is that if I were to be comfortable with having these panic attacks because depression and anhedonia, in this case, ease up when you are comfortable with something and no longer view it as a problem. So in other words, is the only way for me to get better is for me to feel comfortable facing my panic attacks? I have the strong will and determination to face my panic in order to get out of this anhedonia. But as long as you are not comfortable facing these panic attacks which is how I feel, you can have all the will and determination in the world and it won't do anything. You can even address this issue through medication and everything else, but that won't do anything either as long as I am not comfortable having these panic attacks.

Or am I false on this and that since the mind is a very complex organ, then that makes this situation more complex in that my mind can somehow recover the ability to experience pleasure while still suppressing my fear? Has anyone here had anhedonia as a response to trauma or panic and have gotten better with it despite the fact that you were never comfortable facing your trauma or fear?