Because from what i understand it is supposed to help in some way, but thus far I haven't seemed to get anywhere noticeable with it. Not entirely sure what my goal with it is supposed to be...or what exactly its supposed to help with that sort of dawned on me last I met with a therapist(my therapist is pregnant so this is a different one I will be seeing during her leave, and if I click well with them then I will just continue therapy with them rather than switching back).

But yeah they where asking sort of what my goal with therapy was and what not and I found it rather confusing and hard to come up with anything...just vaugly said something about wanting to decrease depression/anxiety symptoms, didn't feel the PTSD would really be helped with CBT and that therapist sort of agrees I'd need more than talk therapy which CBT largely consists of for the PTSD.

I was planning to look for other kinds of therapy, and look into maybe some group therapy or some form of support group for people who struggle with similar problems but i have been slacking on looking into that and actually involving myself in it....I guess I just don't have much genuine hope those things would help so I've been having a hard time motivating myself. I went to one anxiety support group meeting but didn't really like it so didn't go back to that one. I think I am also sort of afraid to address some of the issues head on so in a round about way avoiding it due to that.

Initially though I was put in therapy as an alternative to going impatient in a psych ward, after I attempted suicide when I was 15...stuck to it a while, stopped when I thought I was coping better and could handle things without therapy tried to get back in it after the trauma causing the PTSD but didn't seem to get taken seriously so I decided to forget about it and just focus on graduating and college which kind of back fired and past couple years have been going consistently but having therapists switched on me which just makes it even more chaotic.