well, that does it for me. I can't do that. I only wanted to know how other people here have felt and if anyone has experienced anything similar, not a medical diagnosis. I would have thought in a place that was devoted to unique problems and then emotions specifically that I wouldn't have been gotten for asking a bad question.
I completely understand I have a problem and part of that is taking things like that entirely to hard, but things are hard enough right now, I can't do this also.
I was careful in my first posts I made to be very selective in what I said to make sure I didn't mess up, but this one backfired. I came here is hopes of sharing in other peoples situations to help as I start this battle, not to add to the difficulty level.