[QUOTE=~rider;3880526]Thanks for reading and responding kerf and kaliope.

Kreg, Yes I hear it just takes time.
I'm still so confused how I got so emotionally dependent on someone. I had the same confusion. I wondered how I could be so involved with such a person. Sex was the only thing I could think of.

I have this theory that it has lust for sexual orgasm as the cause. I could be wrong of course. Why not though? Just nature doing it's thing for preservation of species. It's not within conscious awareness but it's a situation in the sub-conscious. During my obsession I had these paranormal like events. Visions and not dreams of bad scenes and bad people. I had some strange encounters with people.
Could I have been in touch with personages living in lower spiritual or astral levels? It could just as well be totally mind generated. If you read anything at all about out of body experience you come across such descriptions.