I just came across yr post from June. I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am for you honey. I.have a best friend that means the world to me and I can't imagine losing her. What happened to yr friend? Was she ill? My friend lives with RA and is in bad shape. I don't know...her body is reacting really badly like her organs and all her joints. Anyways yr friend sounds like she was a beautiful person and those people are hard to find. I.have very few friends because it's hard to find genuine people in this world. Do you know what I mean? I'm a very sensitive caring person who loves with all my heart. God made me this way...I'm very genuine and when I love someone i do it with all my heart. You sound like a wonderful person and I feel really sad for you. Feel free to pm me anytime and I will be there for you. I mean it. I don't like to think you feel so alone. My mom just died 4 weeks ago so my world has been turned inside out. She was emotionally abusive to me but I loved her dearly. Take care of you and write me anytime. Hugs