Because life kind of sucks, and I don't think it's supposed to.

Because my mother drives me absolutely nuts... and I don't know how to deal with her. She's super social and has tons of friends and everyone loves her, and somehow she manages to make me feel like a piece of furniture. And, she just retired this year, and is eager to come and visit with me... often... way too much.

Because there's trauma in my background that has had a huge impact on me, but I haven't sprung that on new T yet. I'm sure I will have to deal with it at some point, and I feel a tiny bit more ready to do that then I did last time I tried therapy, but... I can't really think about it without falling into a place of totally fear, panic, and non-verbal-ness

Because I'm an anxious mess, apparently, and am afraid of just about everything. Biggest issue is work is going to require me to travel soon for stupid job stuff that I do not care about. I'm in a panic about going through security (b/c of some of the stories I've read). I don't think T gets this, but that's partly my fault, because (no shock) it relates to the undisclosed trauma. Sigh. But, really, it's everything... I could almost feel T rolling his eyes when I was telling him that I wanted my next appt to be at his 2nd office, b/c the left turn into his 1st office (no light, busy downtown location) was too hard/scary!