Can't focus on a damn thing at work... keep floating in and out of depression and thinking what to talk about with T. Lots of other nasty emotions stirring around-- anger, hurt, jealousy, disconnect... Did a few stupid things since I last saw him on Tuesday (SI stuff). Always nervous to tell him about this... I tend to wait until the last 5 min. of the session... want to bring it up earlier... wish I could stay with him for 3 hours tonight.