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Originally Posted by Wysteria
I go to therapy because the emotional pain is just too great to feel/handle/overcome on my own. I no longer was able to thrive or survive on my own as I was trying to do it.
I'm trying to learn how:
-to release some of it, heal from it, and overcome past traumas,
-coping skills for when I am overcome,
-to get up again and again when I fall on my *****,
-to communicate better and relate better to others,
-to let go of what I cannot control,
-to be more present and not in the anxiety of future or the regret/shame/hurt of the past,
-to create a stronger me that can continue life, to let go of coping skills that hurt rather than help,
-to face what I cannot face on my own (for now),
-to learn how to trust someone that is safe and worthy of my respect and heart...
-to integrate the parts of me and re-join my head to my heart and body.
-to find hope when there is despair,
-and to learn about the parts of my MI's that need professional medical treatment.
I think the hardest part for me has been the idea that it takes many approaches and a long time (for me) and that it is a really winding road to healing. I could not do it without really good professional support and a lot of patience and courage. But those are just my reasons and part of my path to the future. Everyone is very different.
Wysteria
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^^ all that. I am right with Wysteria. I still feel broken though. Trying to find my resilience. Still, when life gets tough, I go back to wanting to die. I get glimpses of confidence and self esteem. Glimpses I would never have had without my therapist. They never hang around very long. I am afraid of myself and I hate how I react to every thing. Embarrassed of me.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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