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Originally Posted by Depletion
This is a pretty simple question. I'm really just wondering what made you feel like, or know that you could trust your T. Did they do something specific, or did it just happen over time. Or, are you like me and still trying to figure this out. Sometimes I feel like I trust her, but now that I have to confront some more difficult issues, and now that I'm really trying to let her take care of me, I'm having a hard time. I feel like she is going to abandon me at any minute.  |
I've felt all along that my T was going to abandon me. Even when it was good between us, even now that its bad between us. I know in the back of my mind that its only a matter of time until she leaves me.
The small bit of trust we used to have I felt on a heart level...not cognitively. Because of how I felt when she would hold me, sit by me on the couch.
I don't have that anymore to buffer the fear.
I wish I knew what to tell you about how to let go and trust, but I don't. I hope you are able to, bc I think therapy is impossible without trust.