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Originally Posted by rollacoasta
Hey there, you are not alone with the irritability side of things. BP II here also, for the loved ones around me they all mention that my irritability is one of the hardest symptoms for them to handle.
Do you find you are not aware of how bad it actually was until after your episode has calmed down?
And then do you feel really guilty about it and feel susceptible to going into a low?
Like beat yourself up?
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I'm somewhat aware of the problem from both sides; my father was like this too.
I do feel guilt. I'm obviously in the wrong. I feel worst about the full brat attack. This is never directed at anyone but is very hard to live with even for that brief time.
I don't think that a full low follows this for me. Actually, where I am with this now and for the past few months (I believe) has been alternating mixed state with plain depression.
One factor at this point is that my wife and I have been in a desperate state for the past few months. On top of not being able to link with a pdoc most of this time, moving to Georgia finally had us slamming into a brick wall financially. We even wound up homeless for most of a month. We are now living in less than ideal conditions. That's enough for someone stable to fall apart.