I don’t think you are a bad person.

After my best friend/girlfriend passed away every woman I got close to before meeting my Wife that seemed to like me and want to date me turned me down after I told them I had disabilities and what made it even worse was they didn’t want anything to do with me after that and some of them would tell their friends and laugh about it and it made me feel like a freak. I grew up with an abusive Father that constantly put me down for having disabilities and not being ‘normal’ and I watched a lot of kids at my old school that were open about having them get bullied so it just added to all that. I thought I got lucky finding someone that accepted my disabilities like my best friend did and I would always be alone because nobody else could but my Wife changed that. Her eldest (my step daughter) is autistic and she knew more about my disabilities than me and she has changed my life over the years.

When I think about those women now I think they did me a favor turning me down for having ADHD, Asperger’s and OCD because they showed me what kind of people they were and I wouldn’t want to be with somebody like that. From what I can make out in your thread you didn’t do what the women I had bad experiences with did to me and I think you should just talk to him.