Initially I had no idea why I was there. I was crying incessantly for no reason and struggling not to kill myself.

I learned that I immediately had anxiety and post-partum depression, and for a long time had been suffering from PTSD from the foster care system and abuse. I was consumed with a deep sense of unworthiness and self-hatred, and I thought everyone felt that way and that it was healthy.

My "addiction" all these years to cope was workaholism and perfectionism, which made me successful but masked a lot of my wounds.

We are working on self acceptance, building an emotional safety net, practicing self care, and resolving many traumas.