Thanks everyone for your help. I am continuing to try to distract myself, but this urge state is not leaving. I feel like my ability to cope with the pain is lessened. My resiliency is not where it once was. I just feel utterly exhausted. I am trying to hang on. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist on Thursday, and go back to work tomorrow. But I feel so drained. I just want my mind, and life, back.