I know what illness has been affecting me over years. I learnt through experiences over time. Bipolar is something I have come to understand I have so I don't need official diagnosis to tell me what fact is. Anyway, I didn't like going through assessments and getting inaccurate verdict of my circumstances and not being helped, supported when was in difficult place. I can't ignore, pretend I don't have serious illness. Other people may criticise me and think I don't, but they aren't living my life, seeing how I manage day to day and how I feel at nightime. I've had dramatic mood swings. Experienced both severe depressive periods and times of mania.