I am tired of explaining my feelings and symptoms but this site has always offered great help and it has been advice worth acting on.

Thoughts - are racing, negative and mentally blocking my enjoyment of theraputic activities. I have made an effort to cycle, swim and generally be outdoors, and nothing is improving because my thoughts are the same, and my mood, regardless of what I do.

Usually these thoughts will consist of flashes of bad experiences/people I consider negative and bad to be around. Also situations I have been hurt in, and regret, are lowering my self esteem whilst i'm out actively trying to improve it.

I can't win and have to wait another 4 weeks for therapy again, on med zoloft and they are doing absoloutley nothing - is there anything I can ask my doctor about which could numb my thoughts for the time being.

The thoughts are stopping me from enjoying the theraputic activities, sleeping and eating the right amount of food I should be eating.

I also feel pressure to pull myself out of this all time low more than ever, because I want to get on with my job searching and 'appear' normal and interested.

any advice or support would be greatly appreciated, have you any coping skills to share or anything else about this issue? Has anyone been experiencing this too? Thanks.