No one can force you to get help. Why don't you want help? If you don't want help, there's nothing that anyone can do except force you to keep living until you manage to evade the systems. But I do know for a fact that if you honestly and completely seek true help, commit to doing whatever the heck it takes, and then stick with it even when it's hard, things will eventually improve. Quitting on yourself is not giving yourself the chance at something better.