Dear Alison,
You have such good insight and so many wise statements I was extremely touched by what you wrote and will definitely try to focus on me. I think you are really right everyone comes before me and maybe I need to change that up a bit. Myself and my therapist have discussed the medication but really don't believe that is the issue right now. Also have discussed medication with my psych nurse practioner and for right now she seems to agree also (she is the one that does my medication). I am seeing my therapist on a pretty regular basis (you know I was going to write but it does get costly and since I don't work anymore don't want that extra cost going out there for my husband's to come up with) but I should not be so concerned about that and do what I feel is needed for me (that's a wow moment).

I have used the national helpline at times just to get through sometimes. I really appreciate the time you took to write back as I do the others who also replied. When I first started posting it was very difficult but I feel I am starting to become comfortable with putting it out exactly as it is because people are not judgemental and I do feel care
Thank you so much....