I'm not sure what's up with me - I'm not manic, I may have been hypomanic for the past few days but not really any more, it's not a mixed episode, I don't feel depressed. But I can't stop thinking about suicide. What do I do in a position like this? I'm loath to call a helpline, I'm not depressed. It's not to the point where I should go to hospital. I don't actually want to do it, and I'm not generally impulsive so I'm likely safe. The thoughts are just distressing. I'm kind of hoping posting it out here will help get it out of my head. I'm taking my meds, and don't have any PRN. I wouldn't use meds in a situation like this anyway, antipsychs take time to work so I don't see any point in using them PRN for me. I don't want to just knock myself out, because the thoughts will just be there when I wake up.