It's nice hearing everyone's stories about this... I used to never feel lonely growing up, although I spent the large majority of time by myself. I was happy with the world and felt connected to it, and enjoyed being alone to think and feel at peace. Luckily, I wasn't a person born lonely, and only wanted to talk to others occasionally. I only starting feeling lonely when I grew older and certain people started telling me what I think, feel, and know without listening my arguments. During those times, I felt horribly lonely. Now I'm recovering from that and haven't felt less alone in years. I could understand eskielover's thoughts on being alone, too. For me, being alone was really tough at first, and I thought I would always feel terrible alone. However, I gradually learned to be comfortable with myself again, and how "un-lonely" being alone could be. I could connect with the article posted by Glok on lonlieness of spirit. I think distancing myself from "myself" is what the loneliness was about. I wonder if the same goes for a lot of others.
You know, I sometimes wonder if there's a deeper spirit (or whatever it might be) that we are disconnected to when we blank out our real feelings.
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