leah, when i read your posts about the cost of therapy i think maybe one of a couple things is possibly going on:

a) this is really a boundary issue and you need to set boundaries with your T, and yourself, about how much you can realistically pay for therapy. the reason it keeps coming up is because you haven't done this yet and so you feel resentment about it. it's typical that when we don't set boundaries we end up feeling resentment toward those we feel are taking advantage of us in some way. if it is this one then i think the solution is to look at what is holding you back from asserting yourself to ask for what you need. by that i mean saying something along the lines of "T, i can pay X amount of money a week on therapy, how can we schedule things to best utilize what i can afford?" then, stick to that and no messing around with it.

b) you want it all (multiple T appointments/email per week and for it to not cost much) and can't seem to just accept your situation. so, you keep bringing it up but mostly want to express your frustration rather than accept the situation or do something to change it. if it is this one then radical acceptance is probably what is needed so you can find some peace about all this.

either way i think if you just make a decision and stick to it you will likely feel more settled about all this.