How do I get around the fact that I'm incompatible with everyone? For the few people who have found me attractive, none of them has been the least bit compatible or they'd rather be with someone else (even someone they don't really like). At this point, I'm competing against everyone's exes…it's like they all fall in one of two categories:
1. The "I really like you, but I'd dump you for my ex in a heartbeat if they would ever come back into my life (but they won't)" camp.
OR
2. The "I'll push you and guilt you into something physical immediately" camp. I have no idea why people can't wait until at least the second date to touch someone…And apparently it's a joke that I don't want to be kissed (or worse) on the first date.
Just for #2, I'm incompatible with nearly everyone.
Sexual tension pushes other people away from me or pushes me away from them…it just doesn't do anything positive for me. Especially if I'm punished for acting on it…if I make the first move (which has to happen in any real life situation in my case), the guy tends to get mad or scared. If a guy would ever make the first move, then I wouldn't feel desperately like I have to every time. And if I wasn't punished for it more often than not, I'd make the first move more often.
Speaking of guys, I wish I had more guy friends, but the friendships never last long because if we connect at all, I almost always get a crush on him and he of course doesn't want that…or it hurts too much for me. And the same thing happens with girls, although less frequently and they're not mad/annoyed/grossed out/whatever that I like them…it's just difficult for me. It seems like the only friends I'd be able to have would be people that I wouldn't be able to connect with…but those would be lousy friends.
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