So i've been seeing a guy for about 6 weeks and he is really great. The problem is i don't think he's ever experienced any real existential angst, so there's a certain lack if depth. He's being very open minded about my bipolar and all the monitoring i'm under. He doesn't understand it, but it doesn't seem to freak him out either. So i should be really happy with it, and in some ways i am, but i don't know if this could ever go long term because we will never connect on certain levels. My therapist says that i have friends to talk about those things with, and that i don't need that from a partner. But i'm not so sure. I'm going to stick with this for a while and see what happens, because there is a lot about him that's really great. But i think maybe i need to date another person with bipolar. I think that chemistry could be amazing. But i don't know how i would meet another bipolar. At least someone who has some internal chaos... Or maybe i should listen to my therapist. I just don't understand neurotypicals.
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